covid wrecked my life

covid came and took my wife my friend my lover of 31 years, she was my everything.
take it serious people. she got it from a coworker and was sick during the storm then i got sick then my sons wife got it. who both were visiting from florida. me and wife tested positive on 2-22 she had been sick a few days. i was over it in about 5 days, she was sick throwing up for 13 days, she would not go to hospital and even doctor said to just drink fluids and the virus will work itself out, false. she woke up one night freakin out i get 911 on the phone to send help, too late she just passed out in my arms and quit breathing i tried and gave her her lasts breaths. they got there quick maybe 2 minutes of me doing cpr and her heart had stopped at that point, they worked and worked on her and did get her back, she made it to intensive care but there was no good news she was without oxygen to long they tried but she passed on march 1st. the virus wrecked her, she had a bacterial infection that made her septic, she had kidney failure as well and it made her blood sugar level off the chart, they kept insisting she was diabetic but she wasnt.
my sons wife made it through and he never got it, he thinks he had it last february stationed in turkey, my other son never got it and he was vaccinated because he is a first responder. his room mate which is cousin also got it. and he still keeps testing positive and we cant even have her service because he keeps testing positive and my wife is his aunt.we dont want to leave him out of the service

arrrrgggg take care folks take real care

To be absent from the body is to be present with the Lord.
see you soon my love

My condolences Sir

I am very sorry for your loss. I wish it had not happened. This virus seems to hit people very differently. I have personally lost 5 family members and another 7 friends from this freaking disease. I lost 14 people in the last 12 months, only 2 were not from Covid or covid related complications. I have known people in their late 60's heavy and in bad shape be able to pull through without issue. I have known 2 very healthy 21 year olds that were in really bad shape. A 46 year old firefighter in good health that I've known most of my life spent 10 days in ICU and almost died. There's no rhyme or reason. It sucks.

May God comfort your family and may y'all be able to gather to celebrate your wife's life soon.

Truly sorry, man.

Condolences Vanguard

Stay strong

Condolences.

Sorry for your loss vanguard, hang in there bud.

Thanks for sharing your story.Very sorry for your loss.

My sincere condolences.

So sorry for your loss.

Very sorry for your loss.

So sorry for your loss. Prayers for you and your family

I don't have the words. Prayers.

Sorry to hear that sir, condolences and prayers.

My heart aches for you and your family.
I fought the Covid battle for 6 weeks and I have what is now looking like permanent damage and complications with my kidney function and my daily sugar readings are uncontrollable since covid and almost impossible to manage.

may you find peace and comfort in these painful times. God bless

No words here either, such a beautiful very young woman. I'm so sorry.

Sorry for your loss sir , She will live forever in your heart. Prayers for you and family.

So sorry for your loss. I can't even imagine.

I'm so sorry for your loss vanguard. It can't get much worse than losing a spouse. I don't know if I could help at all, but I'm two months further into the process than you so I'm here if you need me. I'll be praying for you and your family.

Heartbreaking. My prayers are added to these for your comfort in knowing you will see her again.

So sorry Bubba. You Folks have a beautiful Angel watching over you. Take care.

Prayers for you sir.

Very sorry for your loss Vanguard.

My heart goes out to you sir. "Take it serious people" is good advice. This is heartbreaking. Hang in there vanguard.

I'm so sorry for your loss, Sir. Such a lovely picture you posted. I hope you and your family find peace and comfort. Prayers for y'all.

My condolences

Man. My condolences vanguard.

Peace to you Sir.

She is beautiful.

I am here if you ever need anything.

Condolences. So sorry for your loss. Hang in there the best you can.

Brother I can’t imagine, you had a beautiful wife and I know your devastated but if you ever just need a day or two to get away give me a shout and I’ll find something for us to get into to try to get your mind off of it temporarily.

Awe man, sorry this happened.

That was hard to read. So sorry for your loss. Stay strong, prayers sent.

Sorry for your loss. Prayers of peace and strength to you and your family.

It’s a loss that just didn’t have to happen. I can’t imagine what you are going through.
I just don’t understand why so many people refuse to go to the hospital when they start getting severe symptoms.

Sorry for your loss. Prayers said for you and your family.

I am very sorry for your loss . I am praying for you and your family .

Sorry for your loss

Condolences

Praying for peace.

Sorry for your loss.

There's really no words.

So sorry for your loss, prayers sent for you and all of her loved ones

Very sorry for your loss. Prayers for you and your family.

prayers for you and family

Very very sorry, I cannot imagine.

Praying for strength for you and your family.

My condolences

"Very very sorry, I cannot imagine." - Me neither. May peace be with you.

So sorry for the loss of the love of your life, my condolences and prayers for you and your family.

So sorry Vanguard for the loss of your "love of your life". Also, very sorry if pandemic politicization could have played any factor in her treatment or perception of treatment. Take care, be strong and honor her as often as you possibly can...

Vanguard, You and your family are in my prayers my friend. May our Lord bring you some peace with all of this.

I cannot image losing my wife. Prayers for you sir.

Prayers for the Vanguard family

My condolences to you and your family. Prayers have been sent.

Condolences. You will never completely get over it.

Prayers sent to you and yours.

Taken way too soon. It's a terrible disease and yes it needs to be taken seriously. I'm sorry for your loss Vanguard.

I'm sorry for you. Your story is not uncommon but it is heart breaking.
Lean on Him.

So very sorry for your loss, vanguard. You and your family are in my prayers.

My deepest sympathies.

Wow, that was a tough but honest read. I am so very sorry for your loss.

Very sorry for you and your families loss. I have experienced the loss of a spouse. Please reach out to me if you need a friend to listen.

You and yours are in my thoughts & prayers.

Condolences for your loss.

Condolences and prayers for you , Sir.

Sorry for your loss and prayers sent for you and yours.

Sorry for your loss.

Sorry for your loss.

So very very sorry for you and your family.

Prayers for you and your family.

I feel bad for your loss.

For what its worth. June of last year my wife needed to get her annual physical. She had to get a Covid test before the Dr. would see her. She did and tested Negitive. Went to the Dr. got her physical.

About a week and half later she got really sick over 4th of July weekend. Could not keep anything down her for over a week, Dr. was no help, told her she had IBS. Only thing I knew was to pour water and Gatoraide down her. We finally got her to another Dr., Kidney funtion was down to 26%, kidney failure is about 15 percent. She had none of known Covid symptoms at the time. While I was trying to take care of her, I got sick. My head hurt like I had been hit in the head with a hammer and my gut was tore up really bad for 5 days. As bad as my wife was I could not stop and I just had to suck it up keep going. The second week of July 2020 was a rough week at my house. Because this was right in the middle of the Covid shutdown, Dr. would not see her. We had Dr's doing virtual examinations over Skype and Zoom which were about as worthless as Tits on a boar hog. I was taken back at how inept some of the Dr's. were. One speciallist we took her to want a tech to inject dye in her Kidneys for a certian test. The tech told me to call the Dr. office back she will not do it. If she injects dye into my wifes Kidneys with a kidney function of 26% my wife's kidneys would fail within minutes. You shoudl have seen the look on that Dr. face when I confronted her and asked why it took a tech with a high school diploma to figure that our. Dr. just gave me a blank stare and she walked away.

Wife has finally got better to some extent, kidney function is about 46 percent after all these months. She still doesn't feel good and not even the same person she was at one time. All the Dr's we have taken her to can't say if she was one of the people that got hit with Covid and had Kidney failure symptoms or not. A very small percentage of people with Covid only had Kidney issues from what we found out. Its to late to take antibody tests. Like our Regular Dr. who is really good said, at this point it doesn't mater what caused it we have do deal with it.

She didnt have trouble breathing back in July, but from time to time she has breathing problems. Foods that she used to like no longer taste good to her. Dr. can't say for sure she had Covid, but I'm pretty sure she did. At the time she had none of the known symptoms of Covid, but she was dang sick. I think I had it too, but my symptoms were not typical Covid either.

Again, I am so sorry for your loss. Life is not easy and it can change so quickly.

Prayers...

Very sorry for your loss. It took a lot of guts to write this.

Prayers for all

Thank you for sharing your story. Soo sorry to hear, and I hope you can find an effective way to cope.

I read your words and can feel the anguish through them. I am so sorry for your loss. The intensity of your words, to me, indicate she was lucky to have a man lover her so fiercely and I am sure that was reciprocated. Words won't fill the hole you have right now; wish I had more to offer.

I had a friend killed in a car wreck two weeks ago; his father pasted this to his Facebook Feed and offer those words hoping there may be some comfort for you:

"Grief, I've learned, is really just love. It's all the love you want to give, but cannot. All that unspent love gathers up in the corners of your eyes, the lump in your throat, and in that hollow part of your chest. Grief is love with no place to go."

Very sorry for your loss. Prayers lifted.

Thank you all im in tears reading all replies

So very very sorry to hear. Prayers up.

My condolences.
I had it my mother had it my brother had it and my niece had it.
We had it all at one time.
It was rough but thank God we all made it.

Sorry for your loss sir.

Wife had a friend that was sharing her home with her sister.Her friend got sick and was admitted into hospital with Covid and passed away about a week later.Her and her sister had lived together for about two years and they always went places together.Her sister never got sick during all this and it's got me puzzled as to why she didn't.

Sorry for your loss.

Please accept my condolences.......the trade off to the greatest blessings is the heart aches that must be felt....... I still wouldn’t trade the time I’ve had with my best friend to avoid it......

That's horrible and I'm sorry. Prayers sent and may your wife rest in peace.

my deepest condolences! Prayers for you and the rest of your family

Me either. Beautiful woman. Sorry for your loss.

Horrible! Cant imagine how you must feel!

THF is open 24/7 and there is always someone here to talk to. We may not all have a doctors degree but most of us here can read and type and have 2 ears to listen to what ever is on your mind. No reason to ever feel alone at times like this.

Damn. My deepest condolences Vanguard. The strength it took to make that post while going through what you are dealing with is admirable. Prayers up for strength and comfort to your family and you.

Condolences.

Couldn't have said it better. Stay strong.

So very sorry for your loss. I can’t even imagine. Prayers sent for yall

Sorry for your loss, that’s terrible

sorry for your loss

Very tough read as I’m sure it was to write. My most sincere condolences to you and your family.

Lean on friends and family to include us here on the THF.

Prayers for you and your family.

Vanguard I’m very sorry for your loss. I didn’t lose family but a friend to Covid and it’s been rough. so I can’t even begin to imagine what you are going through. You’ll be in my prayers.

May the Lord turn his face toward you and give you peace.

I'm very sorry for your loss.

Prayers for you and your family.

Condolences Vanguard. I can't imagine what you must be going through. Sorry for your lost.

Sorry for your loss, blessings for the family..

Thoughts and prayers for you and yours, along with sincere condolences. From personal experience, I know it’s important to grieve to the depths of your soul for the loss of your loved ones.

Times will be dark and sadness will overcome you without warning just because some silly daily routine will summon a rush of memories of your life together. Those times will be lonely and hard but they are part of grieving so embrace them. Eventually you’ll welcome the memories because they will remind you of the love you shared and not cause you the pain you currently feel.

In the meantime, reach out to your family, friends and loved ones to grieve and share memories. They also miss her and care about you. Share with us, like others have said, there is always someone here to talk to.

If you have a favorite picture or two of her you’d like to have touched up, feel free to reach out to me via PM. I’ve helped some of my buddies spruce up old images of their lost loved ones.

Stay strong for your kids and loved ones. You’re in our thoughts and prayers. Reach out if we can help.

I’m so very very sorry for your loss. Prayers for your family.....

Can we get another round of prayers for this THF member here, please.

Just post : prayers.

Prayers for you and your family

I'm so sorry my brother. If you need a minister to pray with you, DM me.

sent

Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, yes, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.” — Isaiah 41:10

Praying for you and your family.

Prayers sent.